Life is simple, you make a choice or discission and there are consequences, good as well as bad ones. It just doesn’t get any more complicated than that.

So placed in that perspective, some of my choices and discissions of late will have some good and maybe some bad consequences in the near future.

The most recent discission, one which was a long time coming, may very well stir things up big time…..

So, you ask, “what did you discide”?
Well I wish I could tell you, but because of the ’sensitive nature’ of it, I just can’t speak openly about it. Although I really have and feel need to talk about it, that much is certain…..

What I can tell you is, that this discission is the one discission, that played my mind for several years now. It kept running circles in my brain -> like: ‘what do I want’ / ‘what if” / ‘what to do’ / ‘etc.’ You know, just your basic ‘worries’…..

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But as you probably understand already, the ‘big discission’ is finally made. After some big time ‘collisions’ the past few weeks, and each collision was one without any respect at all for me as a person, I didn’t have to worry or think about it for long anymore. With the last collision, now about two weeks ago, fresh in mind, I descided that what had been a long time coming had to be done with very fast. Why so fast you may ask, well because someone can bare only so much ‘burden’ for a period of time. Eventually you have to ’shed’ your burden, leave it behind you (so to speak).

So now is the period in which I will experience what the consequences are of my discission. But I’m not really worried big time about that. The most important people around me are aware of my choice and support me. And as time will progress and it is needed to tell people about it (if avoidable I will avoid the subject) I will tell them some highlights. And If and when the ‘discission’ becomes public knowledge I will deal with it in a good manor.

And although the ‘disrespect’ a suffered from the ‘involved’ is making me very very mad and somewhat sad at the same time, I will not ‘disrespect’ the ‘envolved’ in any wich way.  Inspite of some bad remarks about my person, I will tell you now:

‘I’m a better person then the ‘envolved’ think I am”!!!

And as I told you already, I’m aware of my choice and some of the consequences. I know that I will and can loose some ‘things’ around me, it might as well be that some persons will not understand my choice, it might as well be that some persons will leave my group of friends and relatives because of it.
But that’s to be expected and I’m fully aware of that. But I see it all in an good way: “people who really know me, or want to really know me, will try to understand it and support me”!

In the end it all comes down to this ( a remark i made some time ago to a good woman friend of mine, when I suprisingly met her at a local pub):

“Don’t let anything hold you back, it’s not worth it, just be true to yourself and try to be as happy as you possibly can at any time”…..!!

But the first good thing about making the discission is already visible.
I’m much more relaxed, and in all I’m feeling more and more relieved and thus: “I’m feeling much better”!!

3 Comments to “Discissions & Consequences…..”

1. Mickel — 10-06-2009 @ 20:40
   

   If you need help, you know how to find me. I have a clear schedule for the rest of the week. Beginning of next week will be a little busier for me.

   Wishing you wisdom and strength with this challenge.

   - Mickel

2. Sanne — 12-06-2009 @ 08:29
   

   Nou is mijn engels behoorlijk brak (understatement) maar geloof dat ik het toch ongeveer begrijp!

   Jij bent goed zoals je bent, met de keuzes die jij maakt, want dat hoort bij jou! En anderen hebben jou maar als jou te accepteren, want als je je aanpast voor anderen ben je jezelf niet meer en dan heb je zelf het probleem, en dat is niet de bedoeling. Jij = jij = maakt jouw keuzes = goed! Als anderen daar problemen mee hebben is dat hun probleem, en niet het jouwe!

   Als er wat is, weet dat je altijd welkom bent, of dat er telefonisch luisterende oren zijn!

   Geniet van Sonisphere, we spreken daar zekers af! Het komt er alweer bijna aan! Kunnen we mooi je tattoo bewonderen, echt heel benieuwd!

   Het allerbeste en al is leven pieken en dalen, zonder het een de ander niet!

   Knuff

3. rieneke — 13-06-2009 @ 21:08
   

   amen! sluit me helemaal bij jou verhaal en dat van sanne aan!

   liefs van rieneke

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